Sometimes?

Sometimes I wonder, if I shouldn't live through each
day.
Maybe there is something that got messed up at some
point.
Maybe I should actually live.

Sometimes I wonder, if my friends will be here,
ten years from now.
Sometimes I wonder,
if it really matters.

Sometimes I wonder, why my head won't stop spinning,
or whether it's just the world around me that is.
As I stand at the center of nothing,
I wonder whether I should start to spin with it.

Sometimes I wonder, if there is intelligent life out
in space.
And sometimes I wonder if there is intelligent life
here on earth.

Sometimes I wonder...

Sometimes I wonder, if I can get through the day after
next.
Maybe the world will stay with me for my last day.
Maybe just the day before.

Sometimes I wonder if there is a God.
Or maybe we're all each other's Gods.
Sometimes I wonder what I've learned so far,
and sometimes if there is anything that I haven't.

Sometimes I wonder if I should pretend to be real.
Or just give it all up and wear my jammies to school.

Sometimes I wonder...

Sometimes I wonder if Big Foot is real,
and sometimes I am he's my best friend.
Sometimes he is my worst enemy.

Sometimes I wonder if people,
Know.
That they are actually just someone else's dream.

Sometimes I wonder if people,
Know.
That sometimes they waste their entire lives,
in twenty seconds.

Sometimes I wonder if there is anything,
that is actually permanent in my life.
Or will God be the only one I'll know forever.

And sometimes I wonder too much.